I had a different post written for today but I couldn't publish it. Some things are better left unsaid to the masses. Bottom line, I'm struggling with fear right now. Fear of failure, fear of disappointing people, fear of not getting back to where I was a few months ago, fear of pain never going away.
I have a little more hope now but it's hard for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I need to re-evaluate my goals and what is realistic. I need to pray that my new doctor knows what he's doing and that tonight's run is a success. Defining "success" is the hard part.
The past week was fair from a training standpoint. I finished my plank, squat, push-up challenge on Friday and I'll admit I haven't gotten back into it. This next week I hope will be better.
Monday 1-27-14 BIKE 14.1 miles in 60 minutes.
Tuesday 1-28-14 RUN 2 miles on snow in 23:54. It amazes me how some people can still run fast in the snow. I am NOT one of those people.
Wednesday 1-29-14 BIKE 17.4 miles in 75 minutes.
Thursday 1-30-14 RUN 3 miles in (guessing 33 minutes). I ran on the indoor track at my gym and ditched the watch after 1/2 a mile because I was so disgusted by my pace.
Friday 1-31-14 REST All I did was my morning work and even that was minimal and lame.
Saturday 2-1-14 BIKE 10 miles in 45 min. RUN the Groundhog Moonlight 1/6th Marathon - a 4.4 mile hike through 18 inches of snow. A "race" in which I was only a few people from DFL. I should never had participated and it's a miracle I didn't get seriously injured.
Sunday 2-2-14 REST I did some stretching and rolling of my very pissed off calves and back.
Like I said, it was an ok week training wise. My appointment with the podiatrist on Monday was both encouraging and upsetting. I've been given the go-ahead to run, but only 30 minutes twice a week. I have a training plan now with a TON of supplemental workouts in the hopes that I can still run the River Bank Run relay in May with Corey without completely embarrassing myself and maybe have enough cardio base to still pull off a fall marathon. Right now I'm not super optimistic about either.